Ignore the ignorance.

Being ignored by the person you love is hard. But what hurts the most is how they make it look so easy. If you keep calling him texting him/her etc., don't do that. He/She'll wonder why you stopped trying to get him/her to not ignore you.

Yeah… it’s true… but talking is easier than actually doing it. Take a walk in my shoe and walk a mile in it…. 

To be honest, I hate it when I’m ignored. Not because I need constant attention or seeking it. When I notice someone ignoring me many thoughts go through my mind. Deep inside me it’s not really fine. I just keep hiding that it hurts, even to myself I keep on lying. How pathetic I am right? And all going in the same direction, “why are you ignoring me? they probably just didn’t notice, I’ll give them some time. Seriously though, did I do something wrong? Did I say something I shouldn’t have? Did I forget to do something? Do they hate me? OMG they must hate me.”

I can understand if you’re busy or are in the middle of something and you can’t really talk, but is a, “sorry, I can’t really talk right now.” too much to ask? You may think I’m over reacting but if you’re reading this then you must know what you did. It wasn’t just once or twice. It’s been multiple times that you’ve ignored me. Yet I keep trying to talk to you? Why? Honestly…. I don’t even know why myself. Maybe it’s because I really want to keep our friendship & relationship in a good state. Maybe it’s the fact that I once cared for you deeply. But right now all those past emotions seem like a distant memory.

-Shasha-

3:01pm

Pair of rings

05 Aug 2010

2 years back, I was 23 years old.., tarikh ni is actually my birthday *promote sket*... masa tu on the way nak balik rumah dari ofis and I'm wit A.F in the car.. sepanjang perjalanan nak balik rumah, kitorang tak banyak cakap.. suasana agak dingin sikit, tak ingat pasal ape yg we all discussed sampai keadaan jadi camtu *hal kecik je rasanya*.. hati sakit and merajuk..? ade la jugak.. all the way from subang kitorang is on SILENT mode.. Sedih. Hey! Its my birthday rite? this is not supposed exactly to happen !

Suddenly die stop kat Shell (lepas Jusco Bkt Tinggi), and straight away pergi toilet... dalam hati dah menjerit sebab sakit hati tak di pujuk... a few minutes later, dia masuk kereta balik... Me? maintain diam pandang luar.. tetiba terdengar nama dipanggil... i looked at him, he hold my hand, and put a ring on my finger... He said "Happy Birthday Sayang, I love you so much... sorry for what happened just know.." (benda tu berlaku begitu pantas) oouhhh men!! I'm about to cry.. Terharu, happy, excited and macam2 lagi... mak nanges jugak hokeh lepas tuh... tak mampu dah nak tahan air mata yang tak sabar nak melimpah nieh (ada la adegan pujuk memujuk segala, nak elaborate pun panjang..hehehe) and kami just lupakan hal yang buat kitorang bermasam muka tadi

actually tak expect pun akan dapat something from him.. plan asal juz nak makan2 je kat Jusco Bkt Tinggi... pastu dah bermasam muka kat parking lot Jusco.. apa lagi, trus balik la konon2nya..

Until now, cincin tu masih ade kat jari kami... Cincin tu terukir nama kitorng and sepasang... Mine is A***e, and his is S****a... Kejap je masa berlalu...dalam tak sedar relationship kitorng hampir mencecah 3 tahun.. I hope our relationship will last forever sayang..

                  A ring is round, it turns forever and that's how long we'll be together!

The End.

 



Lots of Love,
-Scha-
4:00am.

All My Life

All My Life

I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You
Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You
More Precious Than You
Girl You Are..
Close To Me You're Like My Mother,
Close To Me You're Like My Father,
Close To Me You're Like My Sister,
Close To Me You're Like My Brother
And You Are The Only One My Everything
And For You This Song I Sing....

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You

All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I...That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turned My Life Around,
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I've Ever Known,
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I've Ever Known
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I ..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

(Fading)
And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I...That I Finally Found You.....


**Everytime i listen to this song, will remind me of someone that i love... he sing this song to me while driving... Eventhough there are so many obstacle we've been through, i know our love is true... and i don't give a damn of what people will say bout us.. Love you A.F !

Worst feeling everrrr!!

How do you feel when you heard someone's talking bad things about your Boyfriend? Hurt isn't? That's how i felt today.. Let me ask you something, who do you think you are? Do you think your life's perfect? Or do you want me to bring up all your past which can make you realise that I'm the one who cared about you when no one give a fuck ! You wouldn't even be where and who you are without me. You are NOBODY to me, who are you to tell me to do this and that..? have you look at yourself first? or you haven't look at yourself in front of the mirror? You may have everything which can make you feel very happy and you can be proud of it... but donchu ever forget, what we have rite now, its comes from ALLAH..

Note to others; Doesn't mean you're happy with your life rite now, you can bring me down.. Hell yeah! No one's perfect and neither are you.. Even ours is up side down, but we don't judge others relationship. Fullstop!

Perubahan & Marimo

1. Perubahan.
Perubah yang aku nampak atas diri A.F lately ni buat aku rasa pelik, tapi dalam masa yang sama happy la jugak.. Bukan perubahan ke arah "-ve", tapi sebaliknya.. Lately ni dia macam caring gilos n shoooo shu-weet.. ahaks! Tanya die malam tadi, dapat Petunjuk dari Allah ke? *soalan cepu emas aku bagi* and the answer is, "He changed all because of me".. Dia dah tak macam dia yang dulu.. seriously! banyak jugak perubahan kat diri dia.. especially perangai dia yg ON OFF tu.. aku rasa aku tau MAIN FACTOR kenapa suddenly dia berubah.. haaaa.. the answer is...... tak pe lah, i just keep it to my self... ngeh3....

i hope it will last forever.. love you A.F!!

2. Marimo.
Cutekan nama dia? semalam jalan-jalan dengan A.F kat Paradigm Mall, pastu aku masuk la satu kedai ni dengan A.F (ape ntah nama kedai tuh), sekali promoter tu tunjukkan sejenis objek bulat berwarna hijau yg duduk dalam akuarium.. Promoter tu cakap tak susah nak bela, sebab tak payah bagi makan pun... Campak je dalam akuarium, pandai la dia nk survive.. Tapi dia boleh jadi besar sebesar tapak tangan.. Pastu A.F suruh aku bela si MARIMO tu, ishhh tak mau la... Nama je cute, tapi rupa bentuk dia bulat & statik.. Kalau belai2 pun takde respon cam belai kucing... hahaha... Rupa MARIMO tu cam kat bawah ni:-

Ni baby MARIMO, die jual dalam botol kecil cam ni

 

Ni Marimo masa dalam akuarium. STATIK kan?

Dan die boleh jadi sebesar tapak tangan... tapi gambar Marimo yang besar ni aku google je, sebab kat kedai tu semalam semua baby and almost teenagers..

Taaadaaaaaa.....

Pastu masa dok "googling" tu kan.. aku ternampak benda ni... hurmmm NAKKK !! tapi mane nak beli PEN NI? aku tak rasa MPH dengan POPULAR BOOK STORE ada jual... Mengarutkan? tapi pada aku pen ni RARE.. huhu ~

Okbye!

Jodoh itu ketentuan Allah s.w.t

Setiap kenangan yang ada dalam diri kita akan kekal walau sejauh mana pun kita pergi.. Walau sekuat mana kita cuba buang kenangan tu, ianya tetap kekal dalam ingatan..

Khabar angin tentang seorang lelaki bernama S (bukan nama sebenar), yang pernah menjadi sebahagian dari hidup N selama 6 tahun akan BERTUNANG pada Feb 2013.. Tahniah ! ! Akhirnya S menemukan kebahagiannya dengan seorang CIKGU.. Sekian lama N mengharapkan S akan bertemu dengan seorang gadis yang dapat mengantikan tempatnya...

The problem is..., N tak "excited" langsung dengan berita yang diterima.. Bukan itu ke yang N nak selama ni? Berita pertunangan S bersama Cikgu tu bermain difikiran N? Tak mungkin N masih menaruh harapan dengan S? itu mustahil... Perasaan cinta & sayang antara S & N telah lama terkubur.. Dan ini sangat mengarut! Sebenarnya apa yang ada dalam diri N sekarang ialah perasan tak boleh tengok S bahagia.. Nak lebih jelas ialah "N tak suka S lebih bahagia dari dirinya, kalau boleh N nak S one step behind"

Hmmm... Banyak sangat persoalan yang timbul kn..? Tapi persoalan ini takde la stuck dalam kepala otak N... seoalah2 macam angin lalu je.. *khelasss ayat*

Pada N, let bygone be bygone... even N balik kat S sekalipun, benda takkan kembali macam dulu.. THINGS HAVE CHANGED! Decision made kn? N pun dah buat keputusan yang mane satu akan menjadi pilihan hatinya..  So face it je lahhhh kan... Bukan ke setiap yang berlaku tu ada hikmah dia.. Allah akan turunkan hujan dulu, barulah DIA keluarkan pelangi...

What ever it is, if its true..., GOOD LUCK then... Semua ni kan kerja Allah, dia lebih mengetahui mana yang terbaik untuk hambanya.. tak giteeww?

N bahagia dengan life dia and dengan apa yang die dah ada skg... even sometime tu, up side down jugak... N percaya tiap apa yang berlaku dalam life dia adalah dengan izin Allah s.w.t.

So life  must go on rite? and don't ever look back.. =)

Hilang

Perasaan yang dahulunya membahagiakan, kini hilang entah kemana.. Seolah-olah hatinya kosong.. Dia pun tak tahu apa yang dia rasa sekarang ni... Perasaan yang dia jaga selama hampir 3 tahun ni hilang sikit demi sikit.. Dimana silapnya? Apa puncanya? Kenapa tiba-tiba perasaan yang ada dalam dirinya hilang.. Cinta, kasih, sayang dan benci menyelubungi di benak fikirannya..

Setiap orang menginginkan kebahagiaan dalam hidup, begitu juga dengan dirinya.. Mana perginya DIA yang dulunya adalah seorang wanita yang penuh dengan kasih sayang dan gemar membuat kejutan pada hari-hari penting untuk orang yang paling dicintai? Pada dirinya, insan yang dia cintai adalah PENTING dari segalanya sehinggakan die terlupa tentang dirinya sendiri. Puas difikirkan.. Kenapa sekarang hati dia berubah seperti sekeras batu? Kenapa dia macam dah tak pedulikan orang yang selama ni dia ambil berat? Seolah-olah dia tak ambil peduli dengan apa yang berlaku di sekelilingnya... Apa yang penting baginya sekarang adalah hatinya sendiri.

Terlalu banyak persoalan yang timbul di sudut fikiran.. Apa yang telah terjadi pada dirinya sekarang ni, mungkin berpunca atas apa yang telah dia lalui sepanjang hidupnya... Mungkinkah hatinya terlalu penat...? Penat cuba menjadi yang terbaik demi insan yang dicintai...

Setiap yang berlaku, ada hikmahnya...Allah lebih mengetahui segalanya.

**Segala jawapan bagi setiap persoalan hanya DIA sahaja yang tahu...

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