Voice : Carlie, Carlie are you there? You're here now. There's no avoiding it.
Carlie : Where?
Voice : 1st step. Reminiscing & Retracting it.
Carlie : I don't wanna get up.
Voice : That's fine. You can lay here all day, you can cry all night, you allow to do all the thing you promise yourself you'll never do.
Carlie: I MISS EVERYTHING BOUT HIM !
Voice : What do you miss ?
Carlie : The way he hugged me, the kisses, we holding hand in front of the crowd... Just make me smile.. I miss it all.
Voice : That's okay. You allow to. You suppose to.
Full story, watch this video. (Everytime i watch this video, I'll cry and it make me feel better)
I miss the thought of him, I miss the routine, the body, the smell of him, the comfort... At this point, I just miss him..
I know it's been ages. I'm sitting here. Still struggling, trying so hard to get up, and move on. It's not easy. Some people might say "Be strong Shasha, you'll find someone much more better than him.., you can do so much better or etc" - I really appreciated because I know that I still have friends who loved & cared about me.. You can judge me. You may say anything that you want, but the truth is, "It's so easy to say things when you never be in that situation." No words can describe how hard I've been through and how i felt. None.
I'm trying. So hard. And it's not easy... If only there's a pill to help me forget everything about him.
I don't wanna do this anymore. I wanna be happy, I want my life back. Yeah... I know I can do it... It just a matter of time... Insyaallah.
"Ultimately the path to recovery is not to find someone new for yourself, but to find someone new in yourself" - After Us.
Dear A.F,
I'm gone. For good.
Sincerly,
Shasha.
