Monday 23 December 2013

Letting Go


“You have to let go of what you think is GOOD, in order to get something BETTER, because you'll never know what's BEST for you until it has arrived. Ini adalah pegangan Keknis dalam hidup. Dan inilah benda yang berulangkali Keknis akan bebelkan bila ada kawan-kawan yang putus cinta atau dapat boyfriend tak guna tapi tak sanggup nak berpisah. LOL.

Seriously.

Let's be honest, berapa ramai yang ada cinta pertama pastu perasan yang it is the best thing in the world dan perasan yang omg inikah yang dinamakan jodoh, hati gembira rasa, takde satu yang hodoh. Pastu your next boyfriend gets better and better pastu your husband is the best ever. Okay mungkin belum tahap kahwin maka tak sampai sejauh itu boleh diperbincangkan. Tapi ini pemerhatian Keknis akan sekelilingku.

Kalau dalam perhubungan (atau kerjaya, boleh digunapakai kedua konteks) yang mana kita:
 
1. Sentiasa resah
2. Tak rasa gah
3. Terasa kecil dan direndah-rendahkan
 4. Sering dipersalahkan
5. Tidak harmoni,
6. Yang ada cuma 'cinta'.

Tinggallah. Tak perlu buktikan pada diri sendiri yang itu cinta. Tak perlu buktikan pada sesiapa yang itu cinta. Orang boleh nampak sendiri, and deep down, you yourself know.

Nanti bila dah dapat kebahagiaan yang sebenar baru korang cam LOLOLOL I WAS SO BODOH. Awat aku tak tinggal dia awai-awai? Pastu kawan-kawan sekeliling korang pun cam LOLOLOLOL KAU WERE SO BODOH. Sorry kitorang tak berani cakap sebab orang bodoh takleh tegur, orang bodoh kena biar dia sedar sorang-sorang.

Terlintas nak menulis ini sebab ada dua orang yang paling rapat denganku yang pernah dalam hubungan merosakkan emosi (cemburu melampau, bergaduh perkara paling kecil, saling menghina dan merendahkan) sudahpun melepaskan ikatan yang mereka pikir kuat dan selamanya. They left the abusive relationship and they are glad. Orang yang paling bersyukur akan perpisahan itu adalah diri mereka sendiri. Sebab takde orang paling berpengaruh atau nasihat paling hebat dalam dunia yang mampu membentuk keputusan itu. Hanya tuan empunya diri dan kesedaran akan harga diri.

Let go. Sebab kalau kita sedang genggam tahi, macam mana nak kutip makanan? Buanglah tahi dan cuci tangan bersih-bersih dulu.”

Credit to : Hanis Zalikha

*LearnToWalk*

Friday 11 October 2013

Some things are better left unsaid.


Date : 10 Oct 2013 | Time : 23:59 hours


The Broken One

We’ve all got secrets and certain feelings that we hold inside....don't we..? Some may be told and others you need to hide even though they eat you up inside and they beg... they beg you to tell someone but you IGNORE them and you think they will go away if you do, but they don't.

 I’ll never tell you how I feel, I’ll just keep it to myself and try to heal it by myself...

Sometime it seems safer to hold it all in, where the only person who can judge is yourself.... No matter how hurt you are or how bad you want to tell someone.. Just DON'T !

You’ve to keep certain feelings to yourself because, you can clearly see that talking about it, is a problem and you’re not going to get your listeners to see things from your viewpoint. So the best thing to do it to keep your mouth shut about it.

 

*Nobody cares, so i keep it all to myself*

N/B: Be careful with your words. Once they are said, they can be only forgiven, NOT FORGOTTEN. Words hurt more than actions.



Friday 4 October 2013

Katanya...

Katanya

suruh tengok2 hati dia--
dah kecik, katanya.
suruh tengok2 perasaan dia--
dah calar, katanya.

asyik kita menengok-jaga.
yang kita punya terlanyak2--
ada orang tanya?
 
-FynnJamal

Monday 30 September 2013

Belated Birthday Gift From Him


Date : 290913 (Sunday)
Time : 2:30 pm
Venue : G-Shock, Sunway Piramid

Thank you sooooo much for your thoughtful and generous birthday gift. I really love it! 


The box



The watch.... And..... 

The towel  (free gift).... ;)


I know that you want me to think of you all the time. That is why you gave me a watch so that every time I look at it, I think of you. Thank you so much and I am glad that I can now think of you many times during the day. Once again, thanks a lot to Armie Firdaus. Love you! 

Lots of love, 
Scha.


Tuesday 10 September 2013

All or nothing at all.

You know I'd fight for you, But how I can fight someone who isn't even there...? I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you... I don't care if that's not fair. Cause I want it all, or nothing at all. There's no where left to fall when you reach the bottom it's now or never. Is it all? Or are we just friends? Is this how it ends? 

#tired #fragile #lost #empty #lonely

Thursday 13 June 2013

12 June 13 : I wish that I could stop loving you so much.

I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love, I wish that I could stop cause it HURTS so much cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together, when all of the signs say that I should forget him... I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had... I wish that the good outweighed the bad cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over...

These battle scars don't look like they're fading.. Don't look like they're ever going away.. They ain't never gonna change.. Never let a wound ruin me, but I feel like ruin's wooing me... Arrow holes, they never close from Cupid on a shooting spree.. Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me...

( Then just leave ) You shouldn't have but you said it...
( And I hope you NEVER come back! ) It shouldn't have happened but you let it..

and I'm at the point of breaking.... ~


Tuesday 28 May 2013

You ever feel so, TIRED?



I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling empty inside. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling crazy. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of yelling. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I'm tired of missing things. I'm tired of missing people. I'm tired of remembering. I'm tired of wishing I could start all over. I'm tired of not being able to just let go. I'm tired of faking it. I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of needing help. I'm tired of always wondering when I’m gonna be happy. Most of all, I'm just, I'm tired of being TIRED.

Wednesday 8 May 2013

I'm looking right the other half of me.



Aren't you somethin' to admire?
Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice
You reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and
The glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always
Parallel on the other side

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original
Cause it doesn't seem merely assembled
And I can't help but stare, cause
I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you
You reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I
Would look at us all the time

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you lookin' back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now (please show me, baby)
I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

You are, you are the love of my life [x10]

Now you're the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone
And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are

You are, you are the love of my life [x8]

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do
You're my reflection and all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do

You are, you are the love of my life [x16]

Monday 6 May 2013

Bukan DIA, tapi AKU

Berulang kali kau menyakiti
Berulang kali kau khianati
Sakit ini coba pahami
Ku punya hati bukan tuk disakiti

Ku akui sungguh beratnya
Meninggalkanmu yang dulu pernah ada
Namun harus aku lakukan
Karena ku tahu ini yang terbaik

Ku harus pergi meninggalkan kamu
Yang telah hancurkan aku
Sakitnya, sakitnya, oh sakitnya
repeat

reff:
Ku harus pergi meninggalkan kamu
Yang telah hancurkan aku
Sakitnya, sakitnya, oh sakitnya
Cintaku lebih besar darinya
Mestinya kau sadar itu
Bukan dia, bukan dia, tapi aku
Begitu burukkah ini
Hingga ku harus mengalah
Ku harus pergi meninggalkan kamu
Yang telah hancurkan aku
Sakitnya, sakitnya, oh sakitnya

(Cintaku) cintaku
(Lebih besar dari benciku) lebih besar dari benciku
Cukup aku yang rasakan
(Jangan dia) jangan dia
(Jangan dia) jangan dia cukup aku
(Jangan dia jangan dia) cukup aku
(Jangan dia)

Sunday 5 May 2013

Mistakes don't just "happen"

Its about 4 oclock in the morning (5 May 2013)... Another 1 hr to go, i need to wake up and get ready for going back to Banting (PRU13) and i cudnt sleep... i feel empty.... Sad.... hurt... Being cheated by someone you love, Its really hurt... Di sbbkan tak boleh tidur, so rayau2 kat web, suddenly i found this... Maybe it will help me...

----- For those of you who have been cheated on;
Don’t take that person back. Don’t give them the satisfaction of thinking that what they did was “okay”. Don’t you dare forget the saying “once a cheater always a cheater” because even though it may sound cliche, it’s the god damn truth. Yes, people make mistakes. You deserve so much better than that piece of shit. You deserve someone who actually cares about you and ONLY you. Don’t give them a second chance. Move on and find that individual who will treat you better than any other person has in your life. You deserve that and so much more. Please, whatever you do, don’t settle for someone because you think nobody else is capable of loving you. Better is out there.----

Tak kisah la kesalahan yang macam mane... The things is, I've changed... I've done much for you and u just broke my heart... I trusted u for almost 2 yrs (2011-2013)...

Well, what i can say is.......It's all about TRUST!!


Poor me. :(

Tuesday 2 April 2013

Mengapa kita dipertemukan dengan orang yang salah?... (Repost : Ariff Syafik blogspot)

 

Memang sakit bila cinta yg kita dambakan selama ini tak dihargai oleh insan yg bernama kekasih,apatah lagi kita dibuang begitu saja... tapi,itulah juga petanda terbaik untuk diri dan kehidupan kita pada masa akan datang.

1. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya apabila kita bertemu jodoh yg sebenar,masih ada rasa syukur kita pada ketentuanNYA.

2. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat menjadi penilai yg baik.

3. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa kita hanyalah makhluk yg sentiasa mengharapkan pertolongan ALLAH.

4. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat KASIH SAYANG YANG TERBAIK,KHAS UNTUK DIRI KITA.



5. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH & PENYAYANG kerana mengingatkan kita bahawa dia bukanlah pilihan yg hebat untuk kita dan kehidupan kita pada masa depan...

6. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat mengutip pengalaman yg tak semua orang berpeluang untuk mengalaminya.

7. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita jadi MANUSIA YG HEBAT JIWANYA.

8. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita lebih faham bahawa CINTA YG TERBAIK HANYA ADA BERSAMA ALLAH.

9. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita LEBIH MENGENALI KEHIDUPAN YG TAK SELAMANYA KEKAL.

Wahai sahabat yg kecewa,menderita dan sengsara kerana cinta, fahamilah bahawa kehidupan kita makin sampai ke penghujungnya.

Hari esok pun kita sendiri tak pasti samada menjadi milik kita. Gapailah keredhaan ALLAH dengan melaksanakan suruhanNYA, dan meninggalkan laranganNYA..

Tuesday 1 January 2013

End of 2012

Dear You,
I'm not perfect, I'll annoy you, piss you off, say stupid stuff, and then take it back. But put that all aside, you'll never find a girl who cares and loves you more than me.

Dear Heart,
I know I let u down so many times. I've been going through a lot you can see the tears in my eyes. I apologize. Because I loved him more than me, and now I see there's no you without me.

Dear Pain,
You strike me again, my wounds are not yet healed but the scars has been revealed oh please I wanna be saved from the paid that never fades.

Dear my lovely Brain,
Can you please stop thinking just for a lil while... so that i can sleep easily, without many things to think about ? ~.~”

- Instead of fighting we should have been kissing, instead of screaming we should have been laughing, but its okay the pain will go away who knew we weren't chosen for forever together.

Still me,
11:59pm; 311212