Monday, 23 December 2013

Letting Go


“You have to let go of what you think is GOOD, in order to get something BETTER, because you'll never know what's BEST for you until it has arrived. Ini adalah pegangan Keknis dalam hidup. Dan inilah benda yang berulangkali Keknis akan bebelkan bila ada kawan-kawan yang putus cinta atau dapat boyfriend tak guna tapi tak sanggup nak berpisah. LOL.

Seriously.

Let's be honest, berapa ramai yang ada cinta pertama pastu perasan yang it is the best thing in the world dan perasan yang omg inikah yang dinamakan jodoh, hati gembira rasa, takde satu yang hodoh. Pastu your next boyfriend gets better and better pastu your husband is the best ever. Okay mungkin belum tahap kahwin maka tak sampai sejauh itu boleh diperbincangkan. Tapi ini pemerhatian Keknis akan sekelilingku.

Kalau dalam perhubungan (atau kerjaya, boleh digunapakai kedua konteks) yang mana kita:
 
1. Sentiasa resah
2. Tak rasa gah
3. Terasa kecil dan direndah-rendahkan
 4. Sering dipersalahkan
5. Tidak harmoni,
6. Yang ada cuma 'cinta'.

Tinggallah. Tak perlu buktikan pada diri sendiri yang itu cinta. Tak perlu buktikan pada sesiapa yang itu cinta. Orang boleh nampak sendiri, and deep down, you yourself know.

Nanti bila dah dapat kebahagiaan yang sebenar baru korang cam LOLOLOL I WAS SO BODOH. Awat aku tak tinggal dia awai-awai? Pastu kawan-kawan sekeliling korang pun cam LOLOLOLOL KAU WERE SO BODOH. Sorry kitorang tak berani cakap sebab orang bodoh takleh tegur, orang bodoh kena biar dia sedar sorang-sorang.

Terlintas nak menulis ini sebab ada dua orang yang paling rapat denganku yang pernah dalam hubungan merosakkan emosi (cemburu melampau, bergaduh perkara paling kecil, saling menghina dan merendahkan) sudahpun melepaskan ikatan yang mereka pikir kuat dan selamanya. They left the abusive relationship and they are glad. Orang yang paling bersyukur akan perpisahan itu adalah diri mereka sendiri. Sebab takde orang paling berpengaruh atau nasihat paling hebat dalam dunia yang mampu membentuk keputusan itu. Hanya tuan empunya diri dan kesedaran akan harga diri.

Let go. Sebab kalau kita sedang genggam tahi, macam mana nak kutip makanan? Buanglah tahi dan cuci tangan bersih-bersih dulu.”

Credit to : Hanis Zalikha

*LearnToWalk*

Friday, 11 October 2013

Some things are better left unsaid.


Date : 10 Oct 2013 | Time : 23:59 hours


The Broken One

We’ve all got secrets and certain feelings that we hold inside....don't we..? Some may be told and others you need to hide even though they eat you up inside and they beg... they beg you to tell someone but you IGNORE them and you think they will go away if you do, but they don't.

 I’ll never tell you how I feel, I’ll just keep it to myself and try to heal it by myself...

Sometime it seems safer to hold it all in, where the only person who can judge is yourself.... No matter how hurt you are or how bad you want to tell someone.. Just DON'T !

You’ve to keep certain feelings to yourself because, you can clearly see that talking about it, is a problem and you’re not going to get your listeners to see things from your viewpoint. So the best thing to do it to keep your mouth shut about it.

 

*Nobody cares, so i keep it all to myself*

N/B: Be careful with your words. Once they are said, they can be only forgiven, NOT FORGOTTEN. Words hurt more than actions.



Friday, 4 October 2013

Katanya...

Katanya

suruh tengok2 hati dia--
dah kecik, katanya.
suruh tengok2 perasaan dia--
dah calar, katanya.

asyik kita menengok-jaga.
yang kita punya terlanyak2--
ada orang tanya?
 
-FynnJamal

Monday, 30 September 2013

Belated Birthday Gift From Him


Date : 290913 (Sunday)
Time : 2:30 pm
Venue : G-Shock, Sunway Piramid

Thank you sooooo much for your thoughtful and generous birthday gift. I really love it! 


The box



The watch.... And..... 

The towel  (free gift).... ;)


I know that you want me to think of you all the time. That is why you gave me a watch so that every time I look at it, I think of you. Thank you so much and I am glad that I can now think of you many times during the day. Once again, thanks a lot to Armie Firdaus. Love you! 

Lots of love, 
Scha.


Tuesday, 10 September 2013

All or nothing at all.

You know I'd fight for you, But how I can fight someone who isn't even there...? I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you... I don't care if that's not fair. Cause I want it all, or nothing at all. There's no where left to fall when you reach the bottom it's now or never. Is it all? Or are we just friends? Is this how it ends? 

#tired #fragile #lost #empty #lonely

Thursday, 13 June 2013

12 June 13 : I wish that I could stop loving you so much.

I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love, I wish that I could stop cause it HURTS so much cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together, when all of the signs say that I should forget him... I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had... I wish that the good outweighed the bad cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over...

These battle scars don't look like they're fading.. Don't look like they're ever going away.. They ain't never gonna change.. Never let a wound ruin me, but I feel like ruin's wooing me... Arrow holes, they never close from Cupid on a shooting spree.. Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me...

( Then just leave ) You shouldn't have but you said it...
( And I hope you NEVER come back! ) It shouldn't have happened but you let it..

and I'm at the point of breaking.... ~


Tuesday, 28 May 2013

You ever feel so, TIRED?



I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling empty inside. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling crazy. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of yelling. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I'm tired of missing things. I'm tired of missing people. I'm tired of remembering. I'm tired of wishing I could start all over. I'm tired of not being able to just let go. I'm tired of faking it. I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of needing help. I'm tired of always wondering when I’m gonna be happy. Most of all, I'm just, I'm tired of being TIRED.